04/12/2010

Tired. i have no idea what am i doing nowadays~~~

my life being sucks...

and last months my mood is like set on the roller coaster up and down all the time.

now is Dec i tot will be a brand new month for me, but it seems like still ahve a long way to go.

sorry i really cant stand that you bring me up and set me down. The feeling is so "facking" bad.

exam was so "facking" poor. work was so "facking" busy. mood was so "facking" down.

and school was so "facking" sucks.

every things was so WRONG!! was so wrong.

I'm loss. totally loss~~~

loss in a way that is no turning back.

have to learn that walking alone.

Too MUCH Too LESS??

Things come faster and gone faster~~~

Too MUCH or Too LESS

even me myself are not sure with that~~~

remain the same.

Nov 11

While sleeping last night, I had a dream, it left a tale to tell;
I saw an angel, she wasn’t looking well.
Her body was bruised and battered;
her wings ripped and torn.
I saw that she could barely walk;
She was tired and she was worn.
I walked over then and asked her; Angel how can this be
She tried to smile as she gathered her thoughts,
then these words she said to me: I am your guardian angel, quite a task as you can see.
You have lived a very wild life, with that you must agree.
You have broken law and broken hearts, you see what you have done to me.
These bruises are from shielding you;
I do my best even still.
The drugs you have used so dangerously, I often pay the bill.
My wings you see are ripped and torn, a noble badge I bare;
So many times they have shielded you from dangers that you were unaware.
Yes, each mark bares a story of pain and dangers I have destroyed.
You made me wish, more than once, that I was unemployed.
If you would only embrace life, and choose to do so on your own,
It would stop the pain and suffering that comes from being alone.
I will always be there to watch over you, until my powers fail.
When I awoke I thought about the dream;
how much for life I care.
The I looked around my prison cell,
And my Heart sank in despair.
As for helping myself from within these walls,
I wonder;should I even try?
Then distantly I could hear an old frail Angel cry.



I found this on others blogger post then i copy it and paste it~~~ i think this was meaningful.

Nov 6

<---- Hug??

Lately was busy about midterm~~~

one more day to midterm~~~ Gosh!!!

wish me luck.

The mood is up and down.

A hug is more then thousand word.

everyone needs care even though how tough the person is...

Pls, be thankful

because still have some one are caring over you~~~










here is the music of the day~~~

A lesson for today~~~

learn not to have high expectation then you will live more happy in state of you care these things that not easy to coming~~

16-10-2010

why cant anyone know me well.

no need any words . Just an eye contact or a action and they know what I'm thinking.

Is kinda hard to found such a friends huh??

trying very hard not to be selfish to others but this will not changing others not being selfish to you.

We all are learning how to be a good friends since the day we started to make friends.

when you know some one sometime then you will realise the ugly part of her/him.

the real part i think. The part that you wont know when the 1st day you guys make friends.

I'm asking myself wither me do the same things. LOL. sometimes...

We will not showing the real side of our self when we meet each others at the 1st.

Will some one fight with a "kids" just for a cookies ?? =.=

we are learning more and more since we grow older.

The way treat ppl ,the way how to communicate and how to trusted in others.

actually i have to get up at 6 in da morning and now is going to 4 yet i haven't off to bed. @@

counting the goat now.... 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10......

yet can sleep =.=.

sept 26

recently were busying with the OCS activities~~~~

will dun have any free time till 5Th Oct .

recently schedule is morning 8.30 till 5.00 p.m then night 8 rehearse da dance till 11 p.m.

tired tired and tired..... :S

hope i will be alright~~~ LOL.

gonna off to bed now. night~~~