17th march.

march isn't a good months for me at all. fine i'll make things good.

1. 1st day of march i lost my wallet.

~ two atm cards

~Taiwan I.D.

~medical card

~student card

~and some cash :(

2.one of my roommate move out without any notice. and i was feel bad with that.

3.have some problem with another roommate.(we have 3 before that)

4. some quarrel with my best friends and we chat always and now we dint chat any more sad case.

5.my life was sucks for this two weeks :( (insomnia again and again)

i not going to listed what is happen all. Always asking myself ed you treat ppl good and this was what you get back now. fine. I'll be selfish start from next sec. no point to being too good to the one who dun appreciate. we deserve better, on anythings. I miss the old one. how you guys doing?? i miss you all i really do. i really sad for lost a friend like you but in this case i have do everything i can to get our friendship back and yet you dun accept and you just wanna make it end in this way. alright i'll let it be this way.From what you have act i realise that you can do everything just to hate a person. Is that necessary to do that?? what make you hate me so much?? you will never ever tell again. Anyway, am moving out in the next semester so you wont see me any more.

Thanks to my overseas friend although am not at m'sia and yet anythings happen and you guys are my good listener and always by my side. I surely believe that time will heal. and getting much more better. Going back the plan old me. now was sitting at Starbucks with my favorite green tea XD. praying and wish my life will going better~~~ :D

from no body -> normal friends -> best friend -> sole mate -> no body again. why???

I not even understand what is going on.

is sad that we have build up the friendship and now was broken in parts.

now just being far apart. if cant be friend just wish for a good ending.

wont wish in this worst situation was without saying any words.

and every things end up like that.

this song means a lot. especially the lyrics. :(

Winter holidays

winter holidays started~~~ :)

back to my home sweet home.

CNY is here going for lotsa shopping soon. WoOoOoo going to hunt for some new cloths :D

just back from a childhood friends wedding dinner. The dinner dinner was great.

we talk about the pass and further... have a great time with them.

going to sleep now. Tomorrow morning will have breakfast with JS and QY XD.

P.s. more about the winter holiday will update soon . ^^

07 of Jan 2011

Time files. It have come to end of the semester.

And my final is started on today, bless me in the rest of the week :)

after final I'm going back to my lovely penang XD.

Every things back to what they expected and always wish to. I love to smile and laugh out loud like insane.

But what i have did was so fake to myself.

Fake smile and fake edmund. when can i be real? I HATE fake. I was wishing back to old the me...

why am i just can found the happiness on the old days...


When i first here i hardly believe i can, i was a positive person and every things happy go lucky...


In this New Year I just wish for 3 things

1. my study
2.health
3.expand my interpersonal relationship


pray hard hopefully all will come true :)

now is 2 something in da morning. another insomnia nite :S

04/12/2010

Tired. i have no idea what am i doing nowadays~~~

my life being sucks...

and last months my mood is like set on the roller coaster up and down all the time.

now is Dec i tot will be a brand new month for me, but it seems like still ahve a long way to go.

sorry i really cant stand that you bring me up and set me down. The feeling is so "facking" bad.

exam was so "facking" poor. work was so "facking" busy. mood was so "facking" down.

and school was so "facking" sucks.

every things was so WRONG!! was so wrong.

I'm loss. totally loss~~~

loss in a way that is no turning back.

have to learn that walking alone.

Too MUCH Too LESS??

Things come faster and gone faster~~~

Too MUCH or Too LESS

even me myself are not sure with that~~~

remain the same.

Nov 11

While sleeping last night, I had a dream, it left a tale to tell;
I saw an angel, she wasn’t looking well.
Her body was bruised and battered;
her wings ripped and torn.
I saw that she could barely walk;
She was tired and she was worn.
I walked over then and asked her; Angel how can this be
She tried to smile as she gathered her thoughts,
then these words she said to me: I am your guardian angel, quite a task as you can see.
You have lived a very wild life, with that you must agree.
You have broken law and broken hearts, you see what you have done to me.
These bruises are from shielding you;
I do my best even still.
The drugs you have used so dangerously, I often pay the bill.
My wings you see are ripped and torn, a noble badge I bare;
So many times they have shielded you from dangers that you were unaware.
Yes, each mark bares a story of pain and dangers I have destroyed.
You made me wish, more than once, that I was unemployed.
If you would only embrace life, and choose to do so on your own,
It would stop the pain and suffering that comes from being alone.
I will always be there to watch over you, until my powers fail.
When I awoke I thought about the dream;
how much for life I care.
The I looked around my prison cell,
And my Heart sank in despair.
As for helping myself from within these walls,
I wonder;should I even try?
Then distantly I could hear an old frail Angel cry.



I found this on others blogger post then i copy it and paste it~~~ i think this was meaningful.

Nov 6

<---- Hug??

Lately was busy about midterm~~~

one more day to midterm~~~ Gosh!!!

wish me luck.

The mood is up and down.

A hug is more then thousand word.

everyone needs care even though how tough the person is...

Pls, be thankful

because still have some one are caring over you~~~










here is the music of the day~~~

A lesson for today~~~

learn not to have high expectation then you will live more happy in state of you care these things that not easy to coming~~

16-10-2010

why cant anyone know me well.

no need any words . Just an eye contact or a action and they know what I'm thinking.

Is kinda hard to found such a friends huh??

trying very hard not to be selfish to others but this will not changing others not being selfish to you.

We all are learning how to be a good friends since the day we started to make friends.

when you know some one sometime then you will realise the ugly part of her/him.

the real part i think. The part that you wont know when the 1st day you guys make friends.

I'm asking myself wither me do the same things. LOL. sometimes...

We will not showing the real side of our self when we meet each others at the 1st.

Will some one fight with a "kids" just for a cookies ?? =.=

we are learning more and more since we grow older.

The way treat ppl ,the way how to communicate and how to trusted in others.

actually i have to get up at 6 in da morning and now is going to 4 yet i haven't off to bed. @@

counting the goat now.... 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10......

yet can sleep =.=.

sept 26

recently were busying with the OCS activities~~~~

will dun have any free time till 5Th Oct .

recently schedule is morning 8.30 till 5.00 p.m then night 8 rehearse da dance till 11 p.m.

tired tired and tired..... :S

hope i will be alright~~~ LOL.

gonna off to bed now. night~~~

无印良品 光良+品冠~我找你找了很久

I'm FUCKING INSANE !!!!!

Sept 12

I'm back to da HeLL( my uni) LOL

Back on here about 12 somethings in the afternoon.

I unpack all the 11 boxes (include 3 luggage ) and put them all right on the place .

my table is on da center... =.= i dun really like it... but what to do???

i have learn a lesson on this. First come First serve.

and ppl will choose the best and left the bad for others...Zzz...

the point that i dun like my desk on the center is like when you doing somethings or you reading ppl will look on you.

Is like peeping on you~~~~ LOL. I need privacy!!!!

Well... hopefully my 1st week is going smooth~~~

Wish me luck.

spet 10

It was a tiring week since last sunday i back to taiwan i dint have a good rest at all... Zzzz...

Few of my friends came over for bag pack travel .

I'm leading them to all the places that they wish to go.

they have a great shopping at taiwan. girls love taiwan so much (for shopping only)

they end their 5 days 4 nite taiwan trip and went back last nite.

so now i'm back in tai zhong house~~~ I sleep like a pig last nite cause is toooo tired ^^

My 2nd year Sam 1 start on next Monday... and now i haven't back to my uni yet.

I can't imagine how long i need to unpack all my stuff that i bring back from M'sia

and 7 boxes of my things that i left in taiwan for last Sam.. LOL wish me luck man~~~ :)

here is some pics that we have our dinner with Jin and baoqian at pepper lunch :)

on my right is the girl who visit me =)

5 sept.

My summer break end.

and i get my ass back in Taiwan.

just got back from da air port to B&B(breakfast and bed).

I'm exhausted. Is totally.... =.=

i slept not more then 10 hours for 2days...

yet later i'm going back to air port and pick up eve and her friends...

another 1 and half hours journey... wahhhhhh round way is like 3 hours :'(

but okay la cause they are Banana and they arrive at 10 sumthings at nite.

so if they take cab on their own will be abit danger~~~

byyyyyyyeeee byyyyeeee Penang and my home sweet home. :(

Will miss you~~~~

The nite before i left my house...

half done on my packing.

just back from blogger cafe with van, js, fen, yuan, koay, and bro.

1:45amVanrys

appreciate current

we duno after 4 years, wer will we be.

what will we do

and whether got chance still to come up like now

things is always changing

She send this to me...

okay~~~ I will cherish the time with guys...

Ppl's thanks for accompany me for the whole summer holiday. LoVe... ^^

off to bed..

Langkawi trip

This is the last trip before the summer break end and also the one that I back to taiwan.

we went there for 3 days 2 nite.

here are just some of the pic that we have taken on da trip~~~

All of us are so enjoy on da trip...

when will be the next?? (dreaming)~~~ XD

My diary

No one will understand how i feel when i saw that~~~~

no one will know more clear then me myself~~~~

I try to tell but i dun know started from where and to who~~~~

3 years is isn't a short time. I'm realise I'm have been lie to my self all this time.

I'm dun want to face the fact~~~~

Cause i it cannot make a decision between friendship and you~~~~

I think is time to make it clear for myself.

I'll make it before i back to Taiwan.

You are the one who ask me to do so....

will try my best to do.

Coffee bean.

Back to the place i usually will head over when was i staying at desa mass...

Coffee bean were the place the i will always be here and i can set here for the whole day with just with my laptop ^^

going to meet up with ester, darren and jackdaniel later.

spending my whole afternoon here with my Ice blended caramel and laptop. I felt like very free.